Thursday, August 30, 2012

Catch up vlog..

Friday, April 20, 2012

What I learnt at a Pete Murray concert…

Last night, Krissy, one of my friends and I went to a Pete Murray concert here in my hometown. To be honest, I more went for the opening act – Andrew Redford rather then Pete Murray but that’s neither here nor there.

From the start of Pete’s set, there was this group of 30something ladies standing in front of us – blonde, skinny ladies you’d expect to see them working in offices or out at a posh restaurant for a business lunch, those are the kind of women they were.

By about half way through his set, they were starting to get a bit sloshed and as they did so, their dancing got worse and worse.

Me, being my usual judgmental self, started to pay them out and mock them in my head. I’m not sure if I’m the only one who does this, but I am terrible for it. This went on for almost half an hour, as they got worse, my thoughts got even harsher.

That was until I realised how horrible my thoughts were, and I prayed.  It was just a simple quick prayer.

“God, why do I judge these ladies? It’s not my place, please help me see them as you see them for we are all your children.”

I looked up after I thought that prayer, and the first girl I saw was one of the girls I’d focused my internal mocking on the most and I instantly knew her husband was an alcoholic, that he bashes her and that this is the first time in a year that she was aloud out with out him.

This horrified me.

This lady that I’d been so rude to in my head, was going through so much. Who was I to judge her having a fun time.

I must admit, I stared at her rather intently for a little bit as I thought about all of this, but as I did so, I started to notice that whenever her friends weren’t looking or talking to her, her face dropped and her eyes glazed over. You could see the pain in her face.

One of the lyrics of my favorite songs came to mind while this was all happening, and they go like this:

All those people going somewhere, why have I never cared?
Give me your eyes for just ones second,
Give me your eyes so I can see,
Everything that I keep missing,
Give me your love for humanity,
Give me your arms for the broken hearted,
Ones that are far beyond my reach,
Give me your heart for the ones forgotten,
Give me your eyes so I can see.

Just something to think about. 

Andrew Redford

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Lessons learned the hard way...

Life has been pretty hectic lately. Without sharing details, some of my family members have been going through huge struggles, which has thrown my world into utter chaos. It hasn’t been easy on any of us.

I’ve learnt a lot through this recent set of struggles and I want to share a few of these lessons in a quick way. So here goes:

I’ve learnt that no matter how helpful you try to be or how good your intentions are, you can’t always please everyone. Simple. Obvious! Still, it’s taken me years to learn.

I’ve learnt that sometimes you need to step back and look after yourself and not feel guilty about it.

I’ve learnt that you need to try and find the some times very small moments of happiness and hold on to them through the dark times.

I’ve learnt that you need to prioritise the relationships in your life and spend time working on the important ones.

I’ve learnt that if someone wants to find some one to blame, there will always be an unlucky candidate, whether they’ve done something or not.

I’ve learnt that you aren’t able to get help unless you ask for it. It rarely is just waiting for you.

I’ve learnt that family isn’t always the people you are related to by blood.

I’ve learnt that I can’t get very far without God’s strength. That I really should remember that more often!

I've learnt that its best not to focus on the pain but look for the positives.

I’ve learnt is that people cope differently with tragedy and stress.

Most of all I’ve learnt that it’s ok not to be ok when so much is going wrong around you. I don’t even know if that makes any sense. I used to beat myself up for not coping as well as other people seem to in hard times but I’ve been able to come to terms with the fact that we all process things in different ways.

I would never have survived the last month without God, Will and my beautiful friends. Even through these hard times, I am truly grateful to be so blessed.

“When we see that you're just as willing to endure the hard times as to enjoy the good times, we know you're going to make it, no doubt about it.” 2 Corinthians 1:7 (Message Version)

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” – 2 Corinthians 12:9